A Very Special

Thank You

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I have been so very blessed this whole holiday season. One of the main reason's is because of people like you reading this blog. You saw just a glimpse of my life and decided to take a part in it to make my daughter and I Christmas a very special one.

And I Thank each and everyone of you. Without your acts of kindness this Christmas would have been very bare. With the kindness I received I was able to give my daughter a very special Christmas. I am deeply moved and thankful.

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It was my turn to play Santa this year for my daughter. Since the divorce we split the holidays. Somehow or another my daughter's father always seems to mess it up for me when it's my turn. But not this year I am happy to say. So I got to get up around 2am and put Santa's presents under the tree. Plus I got to eat some cookies!! I don't know how much longer my daughter will believe in Santa so I don't take it for granted. I had a grand time sitting everything out for her to see this Christmas morning. She loved everything she got for Christmas!! I know my daughter is grateful. She is a very special child. At first she had 2 presents under the tree. When she kept seeing more and more presents under the tree she said "Mom, I don't need anymore" She is a good kid and she understands that Mom is struggels to make ends meet. So she really didn't expect much this year.

So another thanks to you all (Big D and The Wow Sisters) and my friends that I have had for many years . You made my daughters Christmas wishes come true!! And for that I am very, very thankful.

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Update on the New Job!

The new job is awesome!! I think I am going to be able to move up with this company very fast, which is what I want to do. I want to be in management and since I am on the ground floor I do think this is achievable. They are going to hire around 200 people and I am one of the first 60 to be hired. I think there is a lot of room to grow with this company and that is what it is all about for me now.

I work 4 10hour days. Which means during that time the only real time I have is work and sleep. But that is okay I enjoy it. I like the job and I feel I have a good chance to be the best I can be, and I will.

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Sometimes I feel guilty because the economy is so bad right now and people are in a bad way when such good things are happening for me. I also believe it is all of the positive energy I put out that is bringing positive things into my life. Things couldn't be better for me right now. I have to wait a whole month before my first paycheck, but that is fine because after that I believe I will become self sufficient. That is what I want more than anything just to be financially stable. Once that is achieved then I will start moving up and I can help someone next Christmas the way I have been helped this Christmas.

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2009 is approaching and it is going to be the first of the best year's EVER to come in my life!! I am staying positive. I will make my dreams come true. This all will happen. I am sure of it!! Oh and Thank You also for your comments on the last post. And no I can not blog at work :(

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Happy Holidays to You and Yours

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May 2009 Treat You Kind!!

It's All Happening

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I am sorry I haven't been online as much as I should. I have been looking for a new job. One that pays better with better benefits. Though it's scary and a little intimidating changing professions but, like I said in my earlier blog I have to make more money.

I did take that vacation day this past Monday and went out on a search. I had a couple of interviews. One called me back for a second interview today. Guess what people? I got the job!!!

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As happy as I was to get the job offer there was one glitch. They want me to start this Monday. The manager (Joe) told me he didn't know when there would be another class starting, maybe not for 3 to 4 weeks out. I told them I really needed to give a notice at my present job. So the manager gave me his number and told me to call him this afternoon with my decision. I got on the phone after leaving the interview and called my manager at my present job. She has always been so supportive and just a great all around boss. When I told her my dilemma guess what she said? She told me I should take the job. She said she totally understood my predicament and is always supportive of any of her employees that move onto to a better paying job. I told her I was worried about giving a notice. She said not to worry. She said if I had just not showed up or just walked out of work it would be different, but I did contact her and ask her advice so this is totally different. See....I told you she was a great boss. I am going to miss her SO much!! As well as all of my fellow co-workers.

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So I think you got the picture. I called Joe back and told him YES I would take the job and I would be there at 7:00 am on Monday morning!!

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So thank you all for your good luck wishes. I probably will only be posting on here once a week because I am going to be working 10hr days and learning a totally new job. I'm sure it will take some time to get used to everything, but I believe good things are coming my way.

I have faith and I believe!! It feels good to believe in myself. I KNOW I can do this and I KNOW this will be better for both my daughter and I.

I am blessed.

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So stay tuned till next time when I can fill you in on how the new job, new life is going!!

In The Words of David Bowie

CHA CHA CHA CHANGES

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Well it is that time of year again when everyone looks back in retrospect of the passing year. I have to say this will be one of the first times that I am ready to make changes in my life in the form of a new year resolution. Though I don't want to call it a New Years Resolution. I just want to call it making a lifestyle change, a new me change.

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See in the past years I have dated some really uncool guys. That's enough of that, but it brought me to the realizations that I had to be better to myself and not to take shit from any man ever again.

Accomplished.... (or so I am hoping and keeping my fingers crossed)

To be better to myself, to focus on my inner being that had been abused emotionally. I have done that. I like who I am as a person and I like me.

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Now this year it is going to be a career change. I have my Teaching Certificate in Early Childhood Education. I absolutely LOVE my job, but, it doesn't help with my pocket book. You know they say it is better to have a job you love and not make a lot of money than to have a job where you make loads of money but you loathe what you do. Sometimes I wonder if that is really true. But with the economy and being a single mother I have to do what is best for my daughter and I. At this time it means finding another line of work that will pay me better, and let me tell ya, that probably won't be hard to do. Because let me tell you, teachers do NOT MAKE SHIT! Especially in Early Childhood Education. I will miss all my children at work, I will miss that I now get 2 paid vacations a year and now I have to start over again somewhere else, I will miss the camaraderie of all of my female companions and boss at work. But I have to go and make the almighty dollar. I am now hungry for it and it HAS to be done. I have a vacation day left and I am going to use half of it tomorrow to go and see about a new job.

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Wish Me Luck!!

BACK IN THE SADDLE AGAIN

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Hello everyone! I am back!

My internet service was turned off while moving but now I am back online.

I am done with my move into my new little condo and I love it.

I had so much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving. Let me tell you a little bit about it before I have to head out the door for work.

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Friends are the greatest things in life. Since I have no family here, my friends take my place of my family. I was so scared I would have no one to help me move. I woke up on moving day wondering if everyone that said they would help would actually be there. I mean it was a big football weekend and a holiday weekend so I was kinda worried. My girlfriend who was staying with me for the holiday's was there of course, but would everyone else show up. Well I got a phone call from my co-worker that she would be there around 12:00 noon instead of 9:00. No problem I thought, I had asked my friend Chris to help me and 12:00 noon seemed like a more realistic time for him to come and help than 9:00 am anyway. So I let Chris know and all was on for 12:00 noon.

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First let me tell you...I am blessed. At 11:30 Chris showed up with his truck. Now we could only use his truck for the things that weren't heavy, like boxes and such, not the heavy things such as couches, bed's. Then right at 12:00 here comes my co-worker and her husband in a truck. She also had one of her son's friends and his truck following her! So I had 3 men, 3 trucks and 3 of us women. I love my co-worker she knows how to get things done!! She came in and took charge and let me tell you we were done with all of the heavy things in 2 HOURS!!

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My friend Chris and I finished up the smaller odds and end's things. When we sat down to take a break after the last load for he and I it was 2:30!! I still had to go back and clean and such but all the moving was done!

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So this Thanksgiving I found out that yes, I have some good friends, yes, I have some real friends! You know what they say, you find out who your true friends are when you ask them to help you move and they actually come.

I am very grateful and thankful this holiday season.

I feel blessed.

The Weekend is Quickly Approaching!!

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So with my birthday weekend quickly approaching I am excited! My friend Joe asked me to go and see comedian Doug Stanhope on Friday night. If you have never heard of Doug you should he is hilarious. My all time favorite Mitch Hedberg died a few years ago and no one has been able to take his place, but, Doug sure comes close. Not to mention Doug is a good guy. I was lucky enough to spend some time with him and his family over the 4th of July weekend. Well...I don't know if it was a lot of time. I went to meet my friend Joe at Doug's house. Doug was having a 4th of July BBQ. But I did get to see and meet the "real" him, not just the comedian. Now I must warn you his line of comedy is not for everyone, but what he says is SO VERY WRONG sometimes that it is just funny.

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Saturday I am spending time with my daughter and alas' packing again.

Then on Sunday (my birthday) my daughter and I am going to go see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra. I bought these tickets before they went on sale to the public since I am a member of the fan club. I got them months ago when I had a bit of extra (if there is even anything such as) money. But it should be a nice time. My daughter has never seen them. I have seen them once before and their show is just amazing! Their music is so infused with the electric guitar and their light show is something you will never forget. Just in time to get us in the mood for Christmas!

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Now, the only thing I'm thinking of is how old am I going to be this year?

37 sounds like a good number, Yeah, I'm 37 this year.... ha ha

STRESSED

Just a bit.

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Well my moving date keeps getting closer and closer and I am still not finished packing. Who am I kidding, I am not even half way done with packing! Seems like there is always something going on. Now with the holiday season approaching there is just going to be more and more to do.

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This past weekend was enjoyable. After the partially horrible week I just wanted some time to go out and be me and get out of the house. I think I deserved it and I accomplished my mission.

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Friday night was a good night. Two of my co-workers and I had an "all girls night". It was fun, just me and a couple of my girlfriends got together at one of their houses and we drank, ate and were merry. We stayed up talking and laughing until 5 a.m. So after waking up Saturday morning around 8:30 am I drove home and packed some like a good girl. But by the time noon came around needless to say I took a long nap.

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After waking up from my nap another girlfriend of mine came over to my apt. We went out and had lunch and hung out for a while. Then my friend Chris called and asked if we were still going to hang out on Saturday night. I had forgotten all about it so I asked what time was he thinking. He said there was a birthday dinner for a friend at his place around 7 pm then the gang was gong to head out to a bar to watch the fight. I decided to skip the dinner and just meet them for the fight. It was enjoyable hanging out with Chris and new friends. Then we all went back to his place and talked and played the WII. This is my second time playing that game and I must say I had fun. A few of us crashed at Chris's house for we were in no shape to drive.

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I woke up Sunday morning, pretty much like Saturday morning and drove home. Before I left Chris asked if I was coming back for the BBQ that night. I said sure, sounded like fun. Then I was drafted into making my homemade potato salad. Which I didn't mind because I love cooking for people. He said he would buy all the ingredients just come to his place around 5 pm and make it. So I drove home, packed a bit more, turned on the Bronco's football game and proceeded to fall asleep on the couch. I got up later, got ready for the BBQ and headed back to Chris's house.

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When I got there they had already had to potato's boiling for the potato salad. Good deal. I made the salad as Theresa put on the BBQ ribs. We turned on yet another football game (we did switch the channel back and forth to see the Suns game also), ate and by this time everyone was full and sleepy. Around 10:00 I headed home yet again. Got home, showered and read my Steven King book "Duma Key" and fell asleep.

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So all in all it was a good, relaxing, fun, and exciting weekend all rolled up in one! I better relish this past weekend cause it is the calm before the storm.

Did I mention one of my best friends are flying in from Denver next week to spend Thanksgiving with me? She is the storm!! hahaha no but seriously we are going to have some fun. Company and moving and Thanksgiving all in the same weekend....

I will survive!!

Something Wicked This Way Comes ~ Through E-Mail

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I just don't get some people. Just when you think you have heard it all, you ain't heard nothing!!

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So I was on craigslist looking for a twin bed for my daughter. We are moving into a two bedroom after sharing a one bedroom. The only thing about this wonderful new venture I have going on is I do not have a bed for my daughter. The ones I saw on craigslist were too expensive for my budget and Christmas is coming!! So I thought I would post something about my situation and see if someone would be willing to "donate" for lack of a better term a decent twin bed to me and my daughter. I really didn't know if I would hear anything back, but there it was first thing this morning a email from someone wanting to help! I was so excited! So I opened the email and this is what it said:

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"I would love to help what can I do? And what are you willing to trade? AGE?"

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Well, I was excited someone wanted to help but didn't quite understand the whole "trade" thing so I wrote back with this reply:

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"Hello, I am not exactly sure what you are asking. I was asking for help to get a bed for my daughter. What are you looking for in trade? What would help you out? I'm sorry but I just do not understand your question."

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They then replied with:

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'You willin to trade any personal time?'

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I thought the email said personal item...So I answered like this:

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"Sure, but not sure what you are looking for. Like I said I am a single mother. We now live in a one bedroom, so personal items are not a plenty. What type of personal items are you looking for? I cant really think of anything of value that I have that anyone would interested in. I do have a kitchen table that we haven't used but a few times, we tend to eat in front of the t.v. I bought it last year new, two of the chairs are not even assembled yet."

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Then this is what I get back....

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"are you attractive?...making sense now?"

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Well to say the least I was astonished and disturbed by this email'er who started out pretending to help me and daughter out. I mean where do people get off trying to take advantage of others like this? Man, first thing in the morning too...

But I did not let it ruin my day! The freak! I just chalked it up to experience and never responded back.

Some people have some nerve!! And this person just got on my last one!!

What Good Is My Love Song

When Your Not Around To Hear It?

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What a week! I am so glad it is over! I was sick most of the week then just as I was starting to feel better on Thursday I got some crushing news. How is it that men can just turn your world upside down. Well I don't really let that happen anymore, because I just do not allow anyone to affect me in negative ways. It was not a mad thing, it was a heart' ache thing. Which brings me to.. I just do not understand men, at all. Most of my life I have been too smothering to men. It took me a long time to figure this out. Once I did figure this out I started backing off, giving them room. Well in this instance seems I gave too much room. So seems this approach for me hasn't worked either. I give up!

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You know for the past year I have really been working on me. Which is a good thing and I figured that whatever is supposed to happen will happen. But there was a certain someone who I met who was very special to me. We had a great time together every time we were together. I mean laughing so hard tears would run down my face. Every time we started to get close he would back off. The first time it happened my old smothering self flipped out. But then I learned the art of patience. He would always come back, and when he did, things were just as they were before, great, fantastic and awesome good times.

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We met after both of us had just gotten out of long, bad relationships. Guess we were each others rebounds. I had been broken up with my ex boyfriend of four years for about a month and he had just broken up with his ex girlfriend a couple of weeks before. We discussed our ex's very rarely. When he did discuss this ex, you could tell she had really hurt him. The story goes she had moved in with him, started doing drugs, staying out all night, and sleeping with his friends. Then she up and moved to California. He was confused and so openly hurt by this woman that he didn't want to get close to anyone else. Thus the reason every time we started getting close he would disappear. Like I said, I would just give him room and he always came back. This time I let it go too long without getting in touch and guess what? I got a text this past Thursday while I was at work that said his ex had moved back, he had gotten back with her. He had told her about us, which she was not very happy about and had FORBID him to talk to me.

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How does this happen? For one, she screwed over him so bad. Secondly who can FORBID anyone anything? How does this work? Doesn't that seem a little overbearing? Do men like this? Why is it that every guy I date and we go our separate ways for one reason or another, they wind up with women who run their lives? Do I give men too much freedom? I mean I just treat people the way I want to be treated. I can barely run my own life, why would I want to run another persons life? It just amazes me is these men seem to flock to this, they are okay with this. I just do not understand.

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Okay in all honesty after I received the text I started thinking negative, which I try never to do. I was thinking maybe he told me this because he just wasn't interested anymore. So...I don't know about you women out there but I did a little investigating and I saw with my own eyes. Yes, he truly was with his ex. This woman is not pretty, in fact she is rather manly looking, but you know I do know looks are not everything. So I'm thinking maybe she is a cool, sweet person. Then I remembered all the things I was told about her and how she had taken him for granted and used him. So I just do not understand.

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Anyone who knows me knows that I am a good person. I am not a bitch, though I do stand up for what I believe in. I do not allow anyone to use me, those days are gone for I am not a stupid young girl anymore. But I will go out of my way a little bit every now and then for someone I care about. But I have also learned not to do too much because that makes you become the "mother" figure and I that's not how I want to be perceived. It's just all too confusing. This woman does not deserve this handsome, hilarious, fun, happy all around good guy. She doesn't deserve him!! I always said any woman who he actually trusted enough to give his heart to would be the luckiest woman on earth. Well...looks as if he has done this, and has given it to the same person who broke it all to pieces before.

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So, I was very hurt, hurt on the inside because I know I would never treat this guy the way she has in the past. I mean I know he is not a "God" and I wouldn't treat him as one. He is just a man, but a man that I felt comfortable with from the moment I met him. You know the kind that when you first talk for the very first time it is if you have known each other for years. Someone you can do and say anything to knowing that you won't be judged and you are totally and unconditionally accepted. Sometimes we meet a man and we want to change them in some way. There is not one thing I would want this guy to change, he was perfect. I mean yea at times he was loud, obnoxiously loud, but a funny, hilarious obnoxious loud. One that would make me laugh so hard my sides would ache from laughing so much.

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All I can say is I hope this ex girlfriend knows how very lucky she is to have a man such as him and doesn't take him for granted again. But I have a feeling she will. I pray that he doesn't marry her and have children and then she pulls some of the old same stuff. At which point he will probably figure out that he doesn't deserve to be treated that way and what he thought would change didn't and what he has isn't happiness at all. Makes me sad to think such a wonderful fun, happy guy is going to be treated that way. Maybe not, maybe she has changed, but I am not convinced.

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So tell me if you think I am crazy. I really truly care for this guy. I feel as if I want to fight for him. That is something I have never felt or done before. We were good together. Usually I just chalk a relationship up to an experience and move on. But this one is different. This guy captured my heart in a way no other man ever has. Now I don't want to disrupt his life, or confront him/her at all. I am not into drama. I have always heard slow and steady wins the race. With that being said, I am not going to let him forget about me. I already have a Christmas present for him I got over the summer. It's nothing big. It is a game. He loves to figure stuff out and my girlfriend has this game and it drives her crazy trying to figure it out. So when I saw this in the store over the summer I grabbed it for him. I think it cost 10.00. Like I said nothing big. I am going to send it to him at his work. Like I said I don't want to cause drama, or disrupt his life. I just want to show him in sweet little ways that he is thought of and I have left an open door.

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So yeah, Thursday was a sad day for me. But then again I always try to be positive and I am. I know I am a good person. I know I have a heart of gold. I know that when God is ready to put a man in my life, he will. I am not out looking I am just living this life and being me. I am a happy me and I like the happy me, and that is how I am going to stay.

No Matter What :)

I'm going nuts.....Coconuts!!!!!!!

The Benefits of Virgin Unrefined Coconut Oil

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Yes, I said Virgin Unrefined Coconut Oil. A friend turned me onto this the benefits of this "wonder oil/drug" and I researched it and have decided...I am going to try it. It can be used in so many different ways and from what I have researched is supposed to be really good for you.

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The first thing I thought of was the cosmetic type beauty benefits. It it can be used on skin for, what they say, will leave you with the softest, most silky skin you have ever experienced. Well..for me that is always a plus, especially since I live in such a dry climate. It can also be used on your hair kind of like a deep oil treatment. That is also a plus to me because I have bleached my hair for so long that it is just dead and it is starting to look that way. I haven't tried that yet but I will sometime this week. I will let you know how my hair turns out.

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But besides of the cosmetic side of this there is another whole other story that is very interesting. It can be used to maintain your health and immune system! It can be used in cooking instead of other oils you would normally use. I found that research and studies on communities who get large portions of their calories from coconut and coconut oils show it to be a good oil for health maintenance. Okay now this part is a little technical but I have to get this idea across to you. Medium chain fatty acids, which account for up to 75% of the fatty acids in coconut oil, are digested and assimilated differently than long chain fatty acids found in most other oils. Medium chain fatty acids support a healthy immune system. Eventually the body uses them for energy!!! Fat storage is always a 14 carbon chain molecule and medium chain fatty acids are comprised of 6 to 12 carbon atoms. There is no evidence that medium chain fatty acids EVER become part of fat storage. So tonight I used it instead of Pam Cooking Spray in my skillet when cooking potato's. My potato's cooked just fine and tasted just as good. I couldn't tell a difference in taste. So that is a good sign so far!!

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So you may be asking, what about cholesterol? Well coconut oil is a naturally cholesterol-free food. Cool...so it must be good for the heart, or that's what I am thinking.

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And get this is....my favorite...it is supposed to also help in weight loss!!!! To sum up what I read, Coconut oil is a healthy source of Medium chain triglycerides, which the body readily absorbs and converts to energy.

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So, why don't more people know about this? I have no idea. I am just glad that I have found out about it. So yesterday on my break from work I went to Hi Health and purchased a 14oz container of this miracle oil...lol. It wasn't expensive at all, the brand I purchased was Spectrum and I believe I paid 8.00 for it.

I also found a very interesting website Tropical Traditions which explained all about Virgin Unrefined Coconut Oil and its benefits. Another cool thing about this site is it explains how Virgin Unrefined Coconut Oil is made. It also explains why you should buy Unrefined instead of the others. I have had enough trouble explaining the health benefits so I am not even going to touch how it is made.

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I am always looking for healthier ways of living for my daughter and I and this coconut oil is all new to me, but I am going to try it. From what I read and researched, it cant hurt!! So as I continue on with this quest of health and weight loss I will keep you updated on how this coconut oil works for me.

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Here at last, Here at last, The Weekend is Here at last!

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The weekend Yes at last Saturday is here! This week has blown by hasn't it? I'm sure it will be that way till and after Christmas. Christmas always seems to sneak up on me. Not this year though, I have been planning since the middle of the summer. Since all of my family is back home in TN/KY and all I have here in Arizona is my daughter, Christmas isn't too bad. I have picked up things here and there for my daughter as I have seen them go on sale throughout the year. Geeze, I sound so much like my Grandmother now...haha. But that is what I have done and Thank God I did, because I am a single Mom and it is hard to make Christmas even happen. I admit usually I have to do the whole Wal-Mart layaway thing. This year there is no more layaway so I had to plan throughout the year. So it tis done, except for a few things. Whew..

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I am excited because I am starting to pack to move into my new apartment!! Thanks to a very dear friend. As I said before I am a single Mom so I have only been able to afford an one bedroom for both my daughter and I since 2005. Now I have found a two bedroom that is actually 25.00 cheaper! It doesn't have all the luxuries that we have now, like a pool, dishwasher etc. Some of you may not think of those things as a luxury, but try doing without them and I bet you will appreciate them a lot more. We can live without those because it is a two bedroom and my daughter and I will have our own space! Now to me that is a lot to be excited about!!

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Being a single Mother I can not afford to hire someone to move me. Which brings me to "good friends". I have asked some of my friends if they would be willing to help me and a few of them said they would. Which is so wonderful since it is a big football weekend that I am moving. See, I am moving the weekend after Thanksgiving. Moving on that weekend is going to be a bit tricky with the whole holiday meal I am going to prepare Thursday night before the move. But I will do it. It is the first Thanksgiving I have had with my daughter in 3 years! One of my best friends "C" is flying in for the holidays also and she is staying with me. Kinda sucks I have to move while she is here, but she is one of my closest friends and she understands. She said she is willing to help and I feel bad that she is going to be here during the whole process, but, there is nothing I can do. And I will be moving just in time to keep out all of the Christmas decorations so my daughter and I can put them up and enjoy them throughout the season.

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Another of my dearest friends. One of whom I haven't known for very long but I trust with everything I have actually helped me with the deposit for my apartment. It is gonna take me a long time to pay them back, but I am a person of my word. It means so much to have such good friends especially at this time of the year. Thanksgiving means to give thanks. I have so much to be thankful for, friends, family, my job a roof over my head, food to eat and clothes to wear. I am not a high maintenance girl. I am very positive and very grateful for everything I have.

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So anyways... I am excited!!

Guess I better get in here and get packing!!

Woo Hoo!!!

History in the Making

Will you remember where you were when you heard the word of our new elected president? I think we all will, I know I will. My daughter was just getting out of the shower as I sat watching the t.v. and checking the internet. We are living in a day of "History In the Making".

I am proud to be living in this day in time. I am proud that the women I know compliment me on how my daughter is a sweet girl and she doesn't see "color" just people. That is how I want it. Though that is not how I was raised.

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I was raised in Tennessee/Kentucky and if you were watching the polls you saw how those states voted. When growing up I didn't like the "race" issue. I only wanted to see people for who they were. That is one of the reasons I wanted to move from there as soon as I could. Every time I go back "home" it is still the same. I will say things have improved, but underneath it is still the same at least with the older generation. The younger generation is trying to make a change there and maybe someday they will. Let's hope they will. Because going back there is like going back in time. Any of you who have ever been in the south will know what I am talking about.

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So we are now living in a new day in time. When I first saw Martin Luther King Jr. give his famous speech it made me cry. He is one of my hero's and always has been. I just hope this country can come together as one and work together to make America the Beautiful, beautiful again. It feels good to know there are so many people out there like myself who really want equality for everyone and not just say it, but mean it. I think that was proved on election night. A new generations is finally here! I am glad that I am around to see it!

Election Day

VOTE

Today is the day people, get out there and vote. Here is a little something to encourage you if nothing else will.

Coffee lovers can get their caffine fix for free if they head to the polls this morning.
Starbucks Coffee Inc. is offering a free cup of coffee to anyone who votes. The Seattle-based retailer will announce an initiative tonight to give away a free “tall” (12-ounce) cup of coffee to anyone who went to the polls to vote.
The announcement was aired in an advertisement during “Saturday Night Live’s Presidential Election Bash.”
The aim is to encourage customers to vote, the company says.
Voters can show their state’s “I voted” sticker as proof.

Party Like a Rock Star ~ Yes We Did!!!

BEST HALLOWEEN PARTY EVER!!

So did you go to any good party's this weekend? I did, I went to a great Halloween party on Saturday night. The party was so good that its now 8:30 on Sunday night and I am still re cooperating.

This is how the night went, as much of it as I can remember. First let me say that M and G are the most fun couple I have ever met. So needless to say I knew this was going to be a great party. There was food and of course alcohol and games, games, and more games. Thank God I didn't have to spin the "Wheel of Doom" but I was in a game where you picked a number out of a bowl each number either had the word suck or blow on it. Then you had to find your partner (the person with the same number) and they would have the opposite of your "suck" or "blow".

Once you found your partner they passed out these long clear tubes that opened on each end. Inside the tube was a jello shot. I was number 3 "blow". So glad I was the "blow" and not the "suck". So my job as "blow" was to blow the jello shot into my "Suck" partners mouth. Easy enough for me. Well me and my partner took first place. She took that jello shot in one shot down the throat!! Later I found out she was an ex porn star, no wonder she did so well. I'm not saying that in a negative way at all. She did a great job and she was a very nice person.

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Everyone loves costumes right? Well I went as a Peacemaker, it was comfortable and everyone loved it!!! Most everyone knew who Roger Clyne and the Peacemakers are which was a good thing. My friends had on some really cool costumes especially Big J. He was The Joker and he went all out as you can see. The first part of the evening he was The Joker in the "hospital" scene from the movie that looked a little something like this.

Then he was just The Joker in a suit and tie. He had the suit custom made for the evening and he looked really hot in it.

Here are some more pictures but I'm going to protect my friends because I don't know if they want their mugs blasted on the Internet. Kinda like protecting the not so innocent as you can see in these pics.
I was doing good drinking my tequila, having fun socializing with everyone then someone started making Absinthe shots. I have never tried Absinthe so sure I wanted a shot. No one told me that it was 110 proof. After my third shot of the night things got fuzzy and things got blurry and then everything was gone. I had pictures on my camera I do not remember taking or posing for such as these

And Now ..... The Aftermath

Thank Goodness my friends let everyone crash at their place!!

All in all it was the best Halloween party I have ever been to and I hope they throw one every year!

Music The Way You Want It! ~Pandora Radio~

Music You Want To Hear When You Want To Hear It

(For Those of Us Who Don't Have Satellite Radio)

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Are you ever in the mood to listen to a certain type of music and you turn on your radio without hearing anything you like? Or you hear something you like and then the next song is just awful or there are so many commercials it just breaks the whole mood? Well I have found a solution!!

There are certain times when I want to listen to just an particular genre of music. Sometimes I want Rock such as Buck Cherry or Hard Rock such as Metallica or Slayer. Sometimes the 80's hair band rock or 80's southern rock. Then there are times I want to listen to folk music such as John Prine. Other times I may want just easy listening James Taylor type stuff. Sometimes jazz, and sometimes (God Forbid) country. Yeah I said it, so sue me.

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Well a few months ago while hanging out with friends one of them mentioned to me a place on the Internet I could go and make my "own" radio station. This intrigued me so I had to check this out. The site I am referring to is Pandora Radio. I must say I was a little skeptical at first but what the hell, I will try anything once. So I found the site and let me tell you I go to this site just about everyday. Especially when I am getting ready for work or doing house work.

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First you sign up...which is totally free mind you. Then you just put in the name of a band or song that you would like to hear. From that point one the site will play songs that are of the same type sound. So no matter what mood you are in, and I am a very moody person, it will play whatever you are in the mood for. I love this place!! Don't worry about downloads like with other online music sources because you don't have to download anything into your computer. Which is awesome because I have been to places such as Lime Wire and such and those places have really screwed up my computer. So be assured that you can go to Pandora Radio with ease that your computer will be safe. I have never had any problems.

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So the next time you have to change c.d.'s or you have so much on your I POD that what comes on next is breaking "your mood" just go to Pandora Radio and let their wizards pick out your "mood" music. They do a great job!! Another great thing is you will be turned onto a lot of other artists that you may have not even known existed at all. It is a great tool for me as I think it will be to you also.

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So tune in and make your own radio stations to fit your moods.

It's worth it!!

Another Groupie Tale on Hallow's Eve

In Honor of Halloween

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I wanted to post a video of one of my favorite comedians Stephen Lynch doing his Halloween Song. By the way, the guy pictured above is not Stephen Lynch, his name is China. I will get to China later on, but back to Stephen Lynch and his awesome Halloween song!!I wanted to post the video right on my page, BUT I can not seem to figure out how to post a video from youtube. If anyone out there can help me it would be greatly appreciated. But this is something I really want you to see, I'm sure you will enjoy it so if you click this link Halloween Song you wont be disappointed, it's hilarious.

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So tomorrow is Halloween!! I am so excited!! It's going to be a very busy night for me. First I am taking my daughter trick or treating. Then I may do some fun "adult" trick or treating" myself so I may not have time to post a blog. So I thought I would take the time tonight to post yet another Groupie Tale for your enjoyment!! So here goes

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The Rocker Boi Who Changed My Life

So it was not such a happy time in my life. My husband had filed for divorce. I had gained mucho pounds with the pregnancy of my daughter. I was faced with the challenge of being a single Mom with no family here at all in Arizona where I reside and really no emotional support from anyone. You could say I was pretty depressed. Well..what always pulls me through? That's right music, rock and roll. So one of my best friends of all time "V" said she was flying out to Arizona to come and visit me. That was great! AND... Our hometown guy friend who plays for a famous band was doing a show here then in Los Angeles and then Las Vegas. So my daughter was going to be with her father and we were going to go on a road trip and hit all three concerts! I couldn't wait to get out and experience a concert again! Since I had become a mother and had gained weight I really didn't go to any concerts. So this was going to be such a fun time and with my Lady Friend "V" coming it was definitely going to be a blast!!

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So "V" flies in and we catch up. She is one of those friends that it doesn't matter if it has been years since you have seen each other it always seems just like yesterday. So the day of the first concert here in Phoenix what do we do? We head out to the venue to talk to our friend and to make sure we have passes for that night. So much had changed since I had became a mother. I actually had an in home childcare business and so we went to the venue in my mini van with 6 children in tow. Yup... it was a sight to see. But I stayed with the children while "V" went and retrieved our friend and made sure the passes were there for us for that night and everything was set to go. So we went to the concert that night and everything was very cool. That was Thursday night. I had taken Friday off of work so Friday morning we head to L.A. for the show at the House of Blues.

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We arrived in L.A. got to our hotel, non other than the Riot House right across the street from The House of Blues. Our friend got us passes and V.I.P. for concert at the House of Blues. If you have never been in V.I.P. at the House of Blues it is a MUST. There are different little rooms and little niches' in which to converse, a patio and of course a bar. It was so very Rock N Roll.

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So I am sitting there on one of the couches and in walks "my type" of guy. Long black hair, black leather trench coat, black leather shorts down to his knees, fishnet stockings, big healed black leather boots, eyeliner, oh yeah...my type of guy all the way. That is one thing about L.A. every time I go there I see this type of guy. It feels like home. So in walks this guy, at first I think it's Nikki Sixx, (mostly because of the hair) but also because Nikkie had written a song for the band that my friend plays for and I thought he just may have popped in to say hello. As soon as I see this guy "V" says, "Oh God, that one was made just for you" or something to that effect. So I admire him from afar and the night goes on. A little later "V" and I go down to the bottom floor of the HOB to take a look around. While we were going back in the elevator to V.I.P. we notice this guy along with about 3 others are in the elevator with us. "V" strikes up a conversation with him the elevator door opens and and we all walk to the bar. He and I start talking and its as if I had known this guy forever. His name was China, he was so very strange but yet magnetic. He intrigued me. He played for a well known band and later I would go out and buy the c.d., of course I would. He and I hung out all night long, just he and I. ("V" is a people person and she was having a good time talking and being the social butterfly that she is.) I even remember when China and I walked through the t.v. room on the way to the outside patio one of the managers was sitting on a couch with a group of people who looked frightened of my new friend. Which I found hilarious.

I heard the manager say,

"That's just China, he's harmless"

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Now you may be wondering how this Rocker Boi changed my life, well I will tell you. As I mentioned before I had gained weight with my pregnancy and I tried to get it off, but I was bigger than I had ever been in my life and it was a battle. When you are bigger than you have ever been you tend to lose confidence in yourself. Well...just the fact that China was hanging with me all night meant a lot, but it was something he said to me. I remember it as if it was yesterday. We were outside on the patio just he and I. The subject of sex came up. We talked about what we liked and such, then he stood up and asked me to stand up. He walked around behind me and said

"I really like your ass, yeah, you have a really nice ass...mmmmm"

and that was it, but that's what it took to boost some kind of confidence in me. After that night I started losing weight and I have NEVER been that big again!! He have me my confidence back and that changed my life. It really did. I saw him the next year at NAMM and I was so proud to be smaller and for him to see it too. I did tell him how he affected me and my life. He and I have kept in touch through out the years. Sometimes I will ask him advice about a guy I am interested in and he tells me the guy point of view. He always watches out for my best interest. It's funny how two souls find each other, how you meet someone and it feels as if you have known them your whole life and can talk to them about any and everything.

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You know most of the time Rocker Boi's are out for one thing, or multiple things. It seems they always want something. But China, he gave unto me, he changed my life. I have never met another like him, and I doubt I ever will. I will never forget him. He will always have a special place in my heart.

Forever and Always

Needless to say after the concert Friday Night at the House of Blues "V" and I didn't make it to the concert Saturday night in Las Vegas ha ha ha

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Oh, What to Wear?

Decisions.... Decisions....

Well, Halloween is fast approaching and I still haven't decided on a costume. I do have one for trick or treating with my daughter. We are going to be matching this year. We are matching bumble bee's, me being the Queen Bee of course.

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I have been invited to an adult Halloween party and I wanted to wear something really cool. So here are my options.

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Option One: I have the sexy Queen Bee that can be worn with fishnet hose instead of the leggings I will be wearing with the costume when I am with my daughter.

Option Two: A Nuns outfit. Which is pretty cool since my name is Theresa I can go as St. Theresa! All of you that know me can get a big laugh out of that one!

Option Three: Now this is the one I had my heart set on, but I have to "make" it myself. Because I didn't like the "costume" I saw, but I liked the idea. This costume consists of me taking a sturdy cardboard box and cutting it into a a doughnut shape, also cutting a round table cloth with a hole big enough for my head to fit through. Then hot gluing a alarm clock, vase with flower and maybe some condoms to the top. Wearing a lampshade on my head and going as a "One Night Stand"!! Below is the image that gave me the idea, but mine would have been as I stated above

Option Four: Which I just thought of tonight. Going as a "Peacemaker!" Which consists of me cutting out the Roger Clyne and Peacemaker symbol out of sturdy cardboard and painting it poking two small holes in the cardboard to put some type string or something which to drape around my neck so it will look like I'm wearing a big sign. Along with a Roger Clyne and Peacemaker Cowboy Hat a Roger Clyne and Peacemaker T-Shirt and my jeans with my Roger Clyne and Peacemaker patch on the back pocket. Not to mention both of my Roger Clyne and The Peacemaker Tattoo's I have will be visible. I can also bring along my wooden tray with the Roger Clyne and Peacemaker Symbol on it with my Roger Clyne and Peacemaker shot glass and some tequila and go around offering everyone shots and saying "Here's To Life" AND I can bring along an IPOD with all of the Roger Clyne and Peacemaker music I have downloaded and have it playing. All in all I think my "Peacemaker" outfit/costume is the most original.... so...... I have no picture of this since it is all in my mind.

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I think I have made my choice....

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I'm gonna be a "Peacemaker" which I am in my heart anyway!!

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If Your Bottles Empty Help Yourself to Mine, Thank You For Your Time and Here's to Life !

~ Roger Clyne~

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Salude'!

Another Tale ~ The Sure Thing

A Not So Wise Man Once Told Me...

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Unlike many tales I will be posting this tale will consist of no famous, as you know them, rockers. This is just a story of some Rocker Boi's I've known for a long, long, time. Well...let me take that back. One of them is the lead guitarist for a famous Rock N Roll band today, so yeah, I guess there is a famous rocker boi in this tale.

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It amazes me sometimes, or should I say "used" to amaze me the women that Rocker Boi's pick to be with. I was at a show of some of my best Rocker Boi friends, whom I have known forever when they were playing a club in Evansville Indiana. It was always such a fun time hanging out with them. It was just like watching t.v. or being at the movies because they were so damn entertaining. I could just watch them just be themselves for hours and laugh my ass off! They were so comical and witty!! Guess that is what lured me to bands in the first place. These are not normal people, I mean they are to an extent, but they are artists and artists are a little off balance. If you know what I mean.

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Which leads me to a night that I will never forget. It's probably been almost 20years ago and I remember it as if it were yesterday. The band was playing an out of town gig. We all had hotel rooms at the same hotel. My girlfriends and I drove separate from the guys to the gig. They had to get there and schmooze before going onstage and we girls had to primp. Anyway we get there and the night is going good. The band got really good reception from the crowd and fun was being had by all. Now one of my girlfriends had a crush on the drummer. The other "Tina" could have cared less about any of them. I on the other hand did think that the singer was HOT! But I had known him since High School. He had actually been in the same class as my big brother, so I was off limits. Which was cool to everyone, except me!! But I worshiped him from afar, just like I had always done since the day I first saw him and at this time it was years prior to this night. He and I were friends just as I was with the rest of they guys. The other guys always considered me something like a sister, which was cool with me. But I did secretly have a crush on the singer, or I thought it was a secret.

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So the night wore on. Several girls in the club saw me and the guys (band) talking. Most of the time girls would approach me and ask about the guys. I usually would take them and introduce them to whichever they were asking about or wanted to meet. I would call it my job as cupid, or I would like to think. So several girls came up to me wanting the same as all the others, but, on this particular night there were a few girls that were just drop dead gorgeous. I thought the guys would pounce at this opportunity. Don't get me wrong, the guys got girls, that is for sure, but these girls were so pretty and nice and sweet. I just knew I would make one of them a love connection. Well I did my duty and introduced them and went my way.

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I had been drinking that night, and was pretty much buzzed. The show was over, bar was closing so my girlfriend Tina and I went to try to find our other friend so we could ride back to the hotel with her. We couldn't find her, so the manager asked if we wanted to ride with him and the guys back to the hotel. It was the first time we had ever been to Evansville or the club we were at, so we accepted the offer. I was seated in between the manager and the drummer (God Forbid) and my girlfriend Tina was in the back when up walks up our friend and starts cussing at me because I was sitting next to the drummer (the guy she had a crush on) and wanted to know why I wasn't riding back to the hotel with her. So being the nice person that I am told her no problem, I would ride with her, I just couldn't find her earlier. So I got out (Tina stayed and rode with the band) and we headed toward her car. Okay here comes one of the strange parts of the night . They singer (the one I secretly liked) came up to me, while I was standing by the car and just leaned down and kissed me, not a little peck, but a good, long, kiss. I will never forget that, nor will I forget that when it was over and I looked at him, that he was holding the hand of another girl and walked off with her, just like that. I never knew if he did what he did to boost his ego or what? Now that I'm older, yeah, I'm sure that is what it was all about. Anyway like I said I was standing by the car, he walks off with other girl in hand. Then my girlfriend starts yelling at me for sitting next to "her guy" earlier and says she is NOT gonna give me a ride back to the hotel and freaking takes off in her car? WTF? She left me there, at the bar, with no way home. By luck the door to the bar was still open and the manager of the bar told me one of the bartenders would give me a ride to the hotel. I had no other choice, so I agreed and nameless bartender gave me a ride. Thank God this dude was an honest, non rapist guy. He got me there safe and sound.

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I walked into our room and my girlfriend Tina was rolling her eyes and shaking her head. I looked around and other friend (who we will call psycho from now on) was in a hot pink teddy with black mascara running down her face crying because her "so called guy" was in HIS hotel room with another girl. In fact it was him and another band member in the room with this other girl. We found out later this other girls name was Snuggles. I'm not kidding, this girl called herself Snuggles. Well Psycho girl kept going to his room and pounding on the door, then she would make her way back to our room crying. I did not feel sorry for her, not at all. I knew this guy didn't like her, she a friend, but not a long time friend and not really a friend of the bands. They had all told me she was a bit psycho, but I believe in giving everyone a chance. It had been a long night for me and I just wanted to go to bed and dream of the kiss I got earlier. I didn't care about her, hell, she left me stranded at the bar. So that is what I did, I went to bed.

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The next morning I proceeded to tell Psycho she was no longer a friend of mine. A friend would not leave a friend at a bar, in a different state, at a club she had never been to before stranded at 2am in the freaking morning. I told her not to call me once we got home or contact me ever again. If she did I wouldn't respond. You know what, I have held true to those words. If she thought that little of me, then screw her!!

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Back to the guys and the reason for this story. Me and my girlfriend Tina were sitting on the steps early that next morning smoking when we saw this "Snuggles" leave the hotel, and she was nothing to write home about. In fact she looked pretty worn out and trashy. I asked them why, when I had introduced them to such beautiful sweet, nice girls the night before, that they ended up with this Snuggles person?. You know what they said, and I believe this to be true in the hearts of all men. They said "why would we want nice, sweet girls when we can have a chick like Snuggles who will do anything and everything we want?" Case Closed.

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There you have it. If a guy is not ready to settle down, which these guys were far from it, they are going to go for what they can get. If they are in that mind set they will go for who will give them the most of what they want, how they want it, when they want it and where they want it. Now I'm not saying a man doesn't like a challenge, but sometimes, and Im thinking more than not, a man wants the sure thing. A sure thing that wont interrupt their lives, a sure thing that expects nothing in return, a sure thing that doesn't want to meet thier family, a sure thing that they care nothing about and will never see again.

Snuggles my dear readers, was just that.

"A Sure Thing"

Weekend Over Already?

Girls Weekend

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This weekend was "my" weekend with my daughter. So that meant no partying, which is okay with me. I love spending time with my daughter. She is getting old enough now to be my friend as well as my daughter, which is really cool.

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Friday Night

So Friday night there was a Fall Festival for Make A Wish Foundation at the school where I teach. My daughter always loves to join me for this event so it was a lot of fun for both her and I. We were so cute!! We had matching costumes, we both were dressed like bumble bee's! This is the first year we have had matching costumes. She has always wanted to do this, but I never wanted to be Tinker Bell, which is what she always wanted to be. So this year we agreed on bumble bee's. Lots of games and food and fun!! So Friday was a fun night for both of us!

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Saturday

Well one thing that's always on the Saturday routine is running errands. So we did all of that boring stuff...grocery, post office, etc. But there was also some cool stuff like..... looking at a new apartment. I found an apartment is much bigger than the one my daughter and I are now in and I wanted to know if my daughter liked it before I made any major decisions. So I took her and showed her the apartment and she LOVED IT!! Which took a load off of my mind. So come the last week in November my daughter and I will be moving into a new, bigger place!! Which is awesome great news for the both of us!

Next we went shopping for pumpkins. We both love carving pumpkins at Halloween. We went with the thought in mind of picking out just the right pumpkins for what we were carving. I picked the perfect one for my favorite "Michael Meyers" and my daughter picked out a wonderful one for her "Spider". Pumpkin shopping was the last stop for the day. Thank Goodness! So after a long day of running around, we ate dinner then decided to pick out a movie to watch together. She wanted to watch the movie "Sex in the City"

I had already seen the movie and I think that every young girl should see more movies like this one. There are a lot of lesson's in that movie that we only get to know as we grow older and sometimes it is good to have a "heads up". So I agreed to watch the movie with her. Sure she asked lots of questions, but ya know what? I answered them with honesty. That is one thing about me and my daughter. I always am honest with her as I hope she is with me now and will be with me as she gets older.

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Sunday

My daughter wakes me up Sunday morning proclaiming that if we go to the movies before noon we can get in for $5.00 each and she just MUST go see High School Musical 3. So I got out of bed earlier than I wanted and we headed out to AMC. I really did not want to go and see this movie. I don't know why...I just didn't think I would find it enjoyable. We get there, get situated and the first scene was of a basketball game. That is a plus!! because I am a HUGE basketball fan. From there I have to admit, I did find it enjoyable. I don't think I would sit through it again. But it was an enjoyable for me and my daughter to see together.

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I am so glad that me and my daughter can enjoy things like movies, carving pumpkins and even just running errands. Because I know there will come a time when she will be a teen and she will find me so uncool. Just as I as a teen found my mother so uncool. I hope it doesn't happen, but I'm sure it will to an extent and I'm not looking forward to that day. So for now I am enjoying the time that we do have together. When we can laugh, talk, sing, and just have plain old fun! These are the times I will treasure....and I do.

I Think It's Time For A Rant

Ex's Are Our Ex's For A Reason

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Okay, here I am. I had a very long day at work. 830am till 8pm would qualify for a long day I think. My daily routine when get home is to check my email, then from there I check my myspace email. I have to tell you I have been on myspace since 2003. It was a cool place then and still is to a degree now but wow, a couple years ago it just took off. Now everyone is on myspace.

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Anyway back to my story or my "Rant" if you will.

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In June of 07' I had a breakup with a guy I had been seeing for 4yrs. Yes I was stupid in this relationship. Yes, he cheated on me and lied to me constantly. But as some of us women do I hung around for the "good times" that we shared. And for a while the "good times" out weighed the bad, until......

He started seeing this one girl who was also on myspace. It's so funny how myspace can break a relationship in two. But I am thankful for myspace because you can always tell what your "guy or girl" is up to. This other girl knew that my guy and me were in a relationship and she didn't mind taking the back seat. When I say this I mean, I was the one at Christmas dinner with his family. I was the one who went on vacations with him and his family. I was the one who had all the holidays with him. She just kinda waited in the wings, waiting for the right time to pounce. Needles to say he cheated on me with this girl time and time again. It was easy for him because you see we lived two hours away from each other. So when I was not there....she was. But it was awfully nice of her to post on myspace all of the "fun" she was having with him when I wasn't around now wasn't it? Even with all of the things this girl posted...I believed him when he would tell me this girl was only trying to start trouble between us and he was so innocent. Yeah, I know plaster stupid on my forehead and just call it a day.

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But was me in my past life. When we broke up I got my feet on the ground and learned that I didn't need a man to live. THANK GOD I finally realized that one!! So I got on with my life, met and went out with other men and started living again as a single woman and taking a lot more time to focus on me. Well...all is well...then my ex's new companion text messages me. Not only does she text message me, she text messaged me 23 times within a few hours in one day. Oh, I forgot to mention that I had to get a restraining order put on her in summer of 06' for her stalking me and sitting outside of my apartment for hours and then trying to do something to my car in the night which the security guard caught her before she could do any damage and called the police, which lead the the restraining order in the first place . Well...with all of the text messages I again had to go to the police to have them tell her to leave me the hell alone! I never once tried to contact this girl, ever, but by God, she was/is always trying to contact me and get back at me. Get back at me? I don't understand this because she is the one who has him now, the lying cheat that he is. Do any of you understand this? I don't.(Maybe she is still mad that I agreed to keep our date last December for him to take me to Denver to see the Bronco's play. We had planned this months before we broke up so I agreed to still go after the breakup. I think this made her really mad. And the fact that up until the text messages he was still a friend whom I spoke to from time to time.) So after I go to the police yet again she no longer tries to contact me but she posts blogs on myspace to me. Okay, yes I know I shouldn't be looking at his or hers myspace pages, but this guy was a part of my life for 4years, and yes she has him now, and I am a woman, I am curious so yes, I look. Both of their pages are public. Mine however is private and has been since I joined. But looking at their pages now doesn't hurt me, but rather makes me laugh. It makes me laugh because of all the things she does to try to entice me to confront her. This latest scheme is a doosey and the whole reason for this blog tonight.

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She always posts about the things they are doing and the places they are going. But ya know what...Ive been all those places and have done all of the things she is so excitedly looking forward to, so that's amusing in itself because she thinks its something new. But this last thing she has done has taken the cake. It was not only amusing to me, but degrading to her in the sense that she has dropped to such a high school level of trying to get to me that it makes her look bad. I mean if I was someone who didn't know this whole scenario and looked at her myspace page I would think she is totally psycho...and by the way that is the nickname she calls herself...psycho.

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Okay...this is the comment she put on his (my ex's) page (for my benefit, I have no doubt)

" Thank you babe for my Halloween costume ;) I'm glad you liked the way it looked on me :)Oh and thanks for the rug burn .. That was HOT !! ;) and what led up to the rug burn was even HOTTER !! GRRRRRRRRRRR !! LOVE YOU !!!!"

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Now would you post that on your boyfriends myspace page? I don't know a lot, but I am old enough to know that you don't publicise how hot you think your bf is unless you want everyone else out there to think your boyfriend is also and that always backfires because 1. Your making him look hot (so others are curious) 2. It says he has a girlfriend, so that screams unattainable which in turns screams CHALLENGE which in turn makes him more attractive so everyone is going to try to hit on him. (Maybe my logic is crazy but that is the way my mind works.) Okay...whatever right? She is getting laid by him. I got laid by him for 4 years, it's nothing to boast about.

But today I noticed her profile pic was of her in her Halloween costume. So I went to her page and saw new pics up. I couldn't quite make out what they were.... here you take a look and tell me what you think.

Well I kept looking and looking then it finally dawned on me. These are pictures of her freaking rug burned knees!!! What kind of person would do this? I don't know, maybe someone childish and petty? Am I being ridiculous or are these pictures ridiculous? You know karma, as I have written about before, has a way of coming back and biting you in the ass. I know I shouldn't look, but I do. I am quite nosy by nature, that is just me. She thinks all of this hurts me. Rest assured that it doesn't hurt me but me continuing to look helps to remind me why he is my ex and someone that I am glad I have out of my life.